Monday, March 3, 2014

I'm So Happy!!

I´m so happy.  Period.  Such a good week.

So to start off CONGRATS SPENCE!!!!!! I was praying for you like crazy that day agh I couldn´t be more proud!!! 1st in state thats sooooo awesome!! Now study your little heart out for nationals because I didn´t do that I just assumed it was a fun trip and didn´t take the national competition as seriously as I probably shouldve but agh I´m so proud!!


I hear about transfers this week so its possible (and very likely) that I will have a new comp next monday.... a bit terrifying because I´ve been with hna altamirano for 6 months and she is absolutely the greatest.

So just saying.... if there are people that speak spanish and want to write their book of mormon testimony for missionary month in spanish I would LOVE it.  You could send them with the schades.  And I so called it before mal.

ANd yep mal I´m super greatful to have a washer.  And a dryer.

Background:  Kyrst's parents were feeling like Kyrst was thinking her area was hard and she has been struggling with having lots of extra mission rules in her mission.  So mom probably gave too much advice last week.  She also gets to read her sister's letters each week (she is an area out in the country and it has been easier to find people to teach).  It's so great when missionaries have experiences that show them that God knows and loves them!!

Alright so to explain this week:

So I started off the week feeling a little sad because you guys said you were worried about me and idk it made me wonder if I´m not doing a good enough job and idk I just started feeling kinda sad and a little compared with Mallory (which happens understandably) but bad because idk my mission experience has been soooooo different.  I just wanted you guys to know that I´m trying my best with things with pres, with the work, with everything.  So I got home and as usual when I´m not feeling so happy I go in the bathroom and cry for a minute or two and then kneel down and have a really good prayer I basically just told Heavenly Father that I didn´t want to feel bad or compared or upset with how my mission is working or with my mission president or anything.  I just told Him I want to feel good.  I want to do more and do better like my parents are suggesting but please don´t show me more all at once so I feel like a horrible missionary like I do right now. I basically said I want to know how I can be better and improve my teaching but still feel good about my efforts, please let me see how I´m doing in YOUR eyes Heavenly Father. Then I ended my prayer and flushed the toilet so the other hermanas in the apartment wonth think I´m a wierdo just sitting in the bathroom hahaha.

So then the next day Hna Wright called and told me she wanted to come to all of our lessons with us for the rest of the day.  She came and we were also with one of our ward misioneras so hna Altamirano ended up talking to Ingrid our ward missionary in spanish a lot of the time and I ended up talking to Hna Wright in english a lot of the time because her spanish is.... doing ok but not as good as her english haha. But seriously. It was just what I needed, we talked about lots of things and it was interesting how much understanding and love I felt for her, then president picked us up and drove us home afterwards which was GREAT because it saved us a 45 min walk. But then Hna wright also had Elder Schade call and ask us how much more money we need to be able to take the bus around because she was concerned about us having to walk so far so much. It was great (not just because i won´t have to take so much out of my home account to pay for food or transport) but becuase being around them and hearing about how much they cared for me and my comp, other missionaries, and the work in our area was really important to me.  It helped me to have a better understanding of why president is doing everything the way he does.  Later in the week i was on divisions and seriously most of the members of this ward I was visiting and the missionaries were just bashing on me for being from Pocuro the rich part of santiago and how I don´t ever have baptisms and my sector is the worst and yada yada. and then they started bagging on president, and I just stood up for him, and I meant it! They were talking about things that to me a couple months ago would have been my doubts but I realized that now I understand and accept it better. I am honored to have him as my president and I am so glad to have my ward even if it isn´t the highest baptizing ward there is.  I got home and gave hna Altamirano a hug and was just sooooooooooo excited to go to work. I LOVE my sector. It isn´t hard, its just different. I don´t baptize a lot, but I do make a difference, I don´t see almost any progression in the investigators as far as key indicators go but I do see progression in their lives.  I was happy to realize that even if it was by having people throw a bunch of insults in my face

But the greatest thing ever that I am out of time to explain is that Elder Evans from the 70 (the executive director of the missionary program) came last second and called all four of the santiago missions together for a conference, his ENTIRE talk was about the doctrine of Christ and our purpose as missionaries and that our purpose is NOT just to baptize and get numbers etc but how it is about our quality of teaching in our personal ministry and focusing on ALL parts of the doctrine of Christ.  Overall I had this HUGE feeling of LOVE from the Lord, that he accepts and is very happy with what I´m doing and how I´m doing. With everything Elder Evans said I realized that I am doing almost exactly what he said, and then I realized a few things I can focus more on in my own personal teaching but seriously I was so impressed by Gods love for me.  Even if he has to send the director of the mission department to a last minute meeting of 1000 missionaries He will do it if it means answering a prayer and showing us His love.  I´m seriously so happy. This was a GREAT week.

Crap gotta go! 

Hna McKinely's 1 year celebration

Zone Meeting with the Sisters



 s at angie and rodrigos house (their surprise birthday party that they threw for her last week) seriously some of my favorite people ever, on the other side is angies sister jenifer, and rodrigos grandma and dad

Doing dishes with Hna Zalaya


A Cherished letter from Nik.


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